Thursday, September 15, 2005
it's such a big blow. i thought i blew my scales, my sight-reading, my aural. But they were above my standards. I lost 12 marks in my pieces. Its cruel. I played with my heart, and yet....and yet....What good is a pianist if she can play SCALES? DipABRSM has got no scales, for goodness' sake. And it wasn't becasue i had no preparation or played wrong notes. She said I played too looud. Not no difference between dynamics, but she complained that the whole range was too loud. OMG. And she criticized my Debussy Arabesque the most. And I....That was the piece I played with all the remaining feelings I have left.
And was so touched by my piano teacher.
She said, "Believe in your playing."
I....
posted @ 4:35 AM
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