Tuesday, July 11, 2006
there is only so many times a person can listen to vivaldi's winter 1st movement without going nuts. unlike thinking, which is completely unlimited. and here i am thinking myself to death.
today's prayer meeting, i felt so far away. i'm really trying to get a grip on myself, my emotions, everything. but it seems as though i've completely lost control over everything.
i ain't got no one to talk to.
so alone. who's gonna understand me? who on earth is fungi-literate?
I need to find someone for me. but in the middle of the night, where there's no one but me, where can i turn to.
a contorted figure, the ache constantly screwing up my heart.i can't being cheerful. i cant stay gloomy for too long when there are many people around. but after everyone's left, i am left alone. sure, im a christian. i have god by my side.
He'll catch me when i fall, he'll make sure that i'm all right.
it's just that, sometimes, everybody would long for something more solid. something to hold on to.
something i can grab on tightly and never let go.
something breathing.
posted @ 5:04 AM
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